When all shall be no more...

I am sharing this in response to a message sent to me from Nomad where in he shares with me some thoughts on fear and death,

{"Fear is the dark ones' most powerful weapon against the light because the energy of fear not only forms a barrier between the consciousness and the soul, it refuels the darkness to keep it thriving. Another means of achieving that two-way objective as well as reducing the world's population was developing various strains of "flu" viruses. An important part of this diabolical scheme to create plagues, which during your history have caused massive fear and death tolls, was the conditioning of Earth's peoples to regard death as the ultimate in fear."}


This is one of my personal experiences with death and fear, as I was so consumed with fear I was inviting death as a release from the pain.

I wrote the following when I was twenty one and first slammed with severe symptoms of PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, I could not sleep because when I did I was doing battle with whom I believed was the devil, my dreams were full of gore and no matter how hard I fought to destroy this entity in my dreams it would always come back with a vengence, I would bring into my dream those who gave me love and light for protection from this darkness and they would shape shift into the demon, feeling defeated I resolved not to sleep. Awake for two weeks, cat napping here and there to maintain sanity I wrote and painted, the following is one of thoses pieces,

When All Shall Be No More...

The sun is setting once again, today will be no more...
So go to rest and take the best tomorrows at your door,
A little death, I sadly mourn today it is no more,
Send its ashes onto rushing waves as the seas whisper lore.

It's stories linger in my mind, the beasts of yesterday,
I forgot the best to dwell on the rest, I've invited them all to stay.
Like demon nymphs dancing on the sea, as the night becomes the day
They haunt and taunt no sleep for me, why won't they go away?

Perhaps in a darkened hour this all shall be no more...
And death shall come to end us all, demons and my lore.

Then a friend gave me a book on lucid dreaming, it had in it the answer I was looking for, it explained how you can become awake in your dreams simply by stating 10 times right before you fall asleep (with Intent) I will be awake in my dreams, it works much the same way as setting your inner alarm clock, tell yourself you must be up at 6:00 and low and behold you awake @ 6:00.

Now the purpose of this was to become aware that I was dreaming while in the dream, then when faced with the monster, I could enter the land of possibility because it is only a dream and now that I am aware I have some control over what might happen. The key to this experiment involved using the opposite of my fear which is love, the book instructed me to embrace this beast with all of the love in my heart. So I did as instructed and the dream came and the monster was there and it was also many, all around me, I had no escape and then I remembered, "I will be awake in my dreams." It was coming toward me teeth dripping huge with horrific intent, So I closed my eyes(in my dream) and lunged forward at the beast and wrappped my arms around it as tight as I could and said, I LOVE YOU< I LOVE YOU< I LOVE YOU with all the light and love I could muster in my heart, when I opened my eyes(still awake within my dream) the beast had completely vanished and I was standing near a fountain with paths surrounding sparkling with the morning mist all around me with the hint of light, it was magical to say the least, and I never, I repeat never had those dreams again. So I added this to part to my poem,

Though I've heard of hope in the dreamer's lair,
that wings could be fastened at a price thats fair,

You've only to seek knowledge and truth,
fly to your dreams and believe in your youth.

The place where time and space do not exist
where love is eternal, and fear never missed.

The death of demons and there lore, the setting of the sun.
Love's embrace creates a space where all of this is none.


Peace, love and knowing to all who dance in this web created cyberspace! Awareness has the power to turn darkness into light. RJ